tip of my fingers

omg.... i have nothing look forward or long for something this bad.... i want the day to come, i can't wait til i see the express on his face, i want to see how happy and glad he would me. It always only takes him to give me one facial expression or one sentence to make me feel like i'm the luckiest girl, all i need is just his reassureance, just hearing him tell me he is glad to have me back is all i need.

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I was talking to malisa yesterday and we somehow was mention how when something is so perfect, great and sweet something bad usually happens and before we know it it all sudden ends. I really pray to god that nothing would be able to separate us, like God taking him, or any kind of misunderstanding, nothing like him (this great) have ever happened to me before, i sincerly hope we will be able to last forever til the end of my day. There is no relationship or man out there in the past where i have ever said, i can't live without him, i would not be happier than what i'm now if it wasn't all because of him, he is all that i need or we truly are perfect, until the day where kelvin held my hands and told me he don't want to let go, and all he have ever wanted is me. We always hear people say 'love is powerful' but i never knew what it meant til now, love is, i can feel it, i can feel it in my heart, it is the biggest force. I believe in everyone's life there is always the 'one' person that is their soul mate but in order for that person to really be yours, it really depends how lucky you are, and now i met my 'ONE' kelvin is that one, we are the perfect match, and for us to be bond as one(marry) that will come very soon, i can feel it, i can see it, i can almost capture it with my hand, it is just at the very tip of my finger, God please let my dream come true very soon, i love this man with all my heart. <3

i just realize how his one sentences or his one facial reaction can affect me a lot, more than it ever should. just like today, he was tired from shopping so i asked him the same simple question more than twice he was quite annoyed, and of course as the sensitive me i was (am) totally upset and depress over it. through out the whole ride from downtown back to home i have been thinkng, telling myself that i know something so small like this will happen in the future especially when i do want the spend the rest of my life with this man, so when this happens again how should i react, can i live like this forever (but i guess so right since no relationship is perfect) but how should i resolve the problem, pretend nothing happened and be all fine again, or confront him about how i don't like when he gives me attuide or that he is not welcome to shop with me ever again because majority of the time he gets pissed off over being too tired from endless and pointless walking around.

i guess i'll just let it be, things would be all good again after he has some rest, i'm sure as long as i just hang in there and hold my own emotions in everything will eventually work out again.

2 more weeks

even though i have been a lil stress over school lately with accounting and philosophy exam coming up, however everytime i think about i only have to wait 2 more weeks til i'll be back in vancouver that lights up my day. I can't wait til i get to be in kelvin's arms again and be able to sleep and wake up wif him by my side, everything would be so great after these 2 weeks =)

lucky me

i feel so great, without stress, and being able to feel that kelvin loves me feels great, he really makes my day, he is a huge part of my life, before we started dating i have always knew in the back of my head that no one can beat how important and great he is, however it wasn't til now that i truly know what i have always been missing out, what truly make him special. hes the person with the best heart, the most reasonable, the most giving person ever i feel so lucky that i get to be the girl kelvin loves and cherish. Starting from last april my life have been so much more happy, little things like him telling me he loves me can make me the happiest person on earth. I hope this can last til the end of time. I will never forget how happy this man can make me feel i really love him. Kelvin asked me a few times saying what happens if another guy like him comes along in the future would i leave him and go wif that guy, i know i have done that in the past but what he don't realize is, there will never be a guy like him, he is really one of a kind, i can go on and on saying how great he is but lets save that for the speech on my wedding day right hahaha.... i can't wait til he gets of bball in an hr and i get to hear his voice again, he is truly the one, the one that i can never stop loving, the one i can never have enough of. lets hope he will never read this site, if not this is going to freka him out, how big of a admirer i'm *totally addicted*


我不需要名我不需要利我不需要手段和心機我只要跟你手牽手一起看電影我只要躺在你懷裡聽你的呼吸我不要華服我不要寶石我不需要住在豪宅裡我只要每天纏著你聽你說甜言蜜語我只要緊緊抱著你聞你的氣息我不怕老 我不怕死我只怕活著的時候你不愛我我怕分開 我怕遺忘我不怕跟你一起上天堂 I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU SO MUCH
除了LOVE YOU 還想說 THANK YOU 謝謝你愛我謝謝你疼我謝謝你在我這一生陪伴我讓我照顧你 讓我保護你讓我用盡全力去愛你讓我幫你剪指甲 幫你拔眉毛讓我幫你把煩惱 全部都趕跑你是我老公 我是你老婆這是我做過最美的夢我們要開開心心手牽著手要相親相愛走到人生的盡頭 �k^`O�biq�

薛凱琪 不知不覺

ahhhhhh .... i really wish u were by my side, i feel like i really need chu 24/7

unbearable anymore

I know i have been hidding it really good but i really have to let it out one way or the other now, for the past 2 months i have been realy stress because of school. Lately i feel like everything is out of my control, i have tried studying hard and being as prepare as i can before a midterm but it seems like it have not helped at all. I'm so lost, i don't know who i can share all of my feelings with i know i have kelvin who i'm really close with but for some reason i don't want hm to see that emotional side of me, and plus i know if i tell him how depress i have been feeling lately i won't be able to stop crying, he always make me so emotionally weak =P

Yesterday he told me he don't trust me at all and it just all of the sudden hit me that i'm actually very depress, i don't know why i feel like me and kelvin is currently not as close a we used to be when we were together, don't get me wrong i still love him lots or maybe even more but on the other hand i feel he is less attached with me, maybe is because he don't really have enough time alone (since i always get him to stay on the phone with me) aiiii i just really want us to see again because i know that will make us alot better. i guess now all i should focus on is school while hoping the time will go by asap.


- i wish he could just like me for who i'm NOW, love me for the person i'm NOW and consider nothing about the past but the present and future, i really don't ever want to mendtion or bring up the things that happened to me in the past anymore, can we just let the past stay in the best and make sure we can make the best out of the best for the coming years in the future, please just let me breathe please :'( i love him so much i can't afford to see this to end i really can't .......................................... please just trust me that i love you PLEASE :'( i really can't take this anymore....... *i can't stop crying*